Thursday, October 3, 2013

High School is Haunting Me

I'm under a fair amount of stress these days. I don't know what in the hell possessed me to think that taking 4 classes this semester while working 40 hours a week and taking care of a family would be a wise thing to do. On a good day I can still fit in some sort of workout and these days that's mainly holding on for dear life while being dragged by a 50 pound dog while she chases all the rabbits and squirrels in the neighborhood. (Seriously. It's like a fucking forest around here with all the damn wildlife. Good cardio, though) But when I am stressed I have a recurring dream. This dream has been haunting me for years and it won't go away. 17 long years...

In my dream I'm told that I didn't actually graduate from high school.

I know, I know. That is bat shit crazy. I graduated in freakin 1996. I have my diploma(somewhere), a copy of my transcript, pics of me in my cap and gown and all the proof I need to show that I did in fact escape the halls of Bryan Station High School after 4 years. But in this dream the principal shows up at my house IN THE PRESENT DAY and tells me I didn't actually graduate and have to go back. WTF does this mean?? I didn't have a particularly traumatic high school experience. The only thing that scarred me was the inability to pass Algebra, which I swear was created by Satan himself. Nothing out of the ordinary happened to make me have this irrational dream. How would this be analyzed? Do I have unfinished business from then? Is there an incomplete algebra test floating around in limbo somewhere that is waiting to have a big fat "F" marked on it? The only regret I have from high school is that I was a huge chicken shit and was too afraid of my mom to do anything that might have gotten me into real trouble. I just can't figure out the meaning behind this.

I hope I learn how to better manage my stress. If it gets worse I might start dreaming about middle school and that was a time that really sucked ass. Let's just hope I can sleep tonight without hearing the fight song in my head and trying to push my way through the halls so I don't get a tardy.  :S



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