Be Careful Pointing Fingers

How does the saying go? When you point your finger at someone the rest are pointing back at you? I don't know if that's exactly how it goes, but you get the idea. I have a friend who I had not spoken to in a long time. Cut her off without explanation. I justified it by playing the mad card. I created a list of reasons to be mad but I never told her. My mind can be a real tricky bitch and the more I thought these things the more I believed them. Then it hit me. I was mad at myself and it's a lot easier to be mad at someone else. You can't shut yourself out, but you can other people. It's stupid, ridiculous and overall a real jackass thing to do. I regret it. I have for a long time but I was scared to reach out for fear she was mad at me. She had every right to be. It's really shitty to be best friends with someone for so long and then vanish.The whole time I was pointing my finger at her and blaming her for my not speaking to her, my other fingers were pointing at me and screaming" Hey!! Stop being a stubborn asshole and look in the mirror!" So I did. I reached out in the wieniest way possible by tagging her in a picture I posted on Facebook. I had friend requested and cancelled the friend request a few times because I was afraid she'd tell me to fuck off. Thankfully she didn't. We've messaged each other and plan on calling later. I hope we can fall back into where we were but if not that's ok. I understand. I apologized but sometimes that's not enough and I get that. But I never want to lose touch again. The next time I start pointing fingers I'm going to use my hand to slap myself instead. Maybe then I won't be such a jackass.